I AM BECOMING DAILY,THE TESTIMONY OF THE LORD

THIS IS WHAT THE LORD HAS ACCOMPLISHED [so far], IN THE LIFE OF GINA SOOBRATEE

Merciful Saviour, the God of my Salvation, I will give you ALL the praise because you are worthy. There is none like you. No man can compare to you. It is by your grace I am saved. It is by your grace that I have acquired the understanding to know You. You are the only true and living God; the God of yesterday, today and forever more. Psalm 103:1 ‘Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his Holy name. Praise the Lord O my soul and forget not all his benefits – who has forgiven us all of our sins and healed all our diseases, who redeemed my life from the pit and [will ] crown me eventually with HIS love and compassion’……….

I thank the most High God for The Prophetess – the vessel that God ordained and sent to be my Spiritual Leader, my Spiritual Mother and my Spirit-filled friend. I thank God for her strength and faith in Jesus; and I am amazed at some of her testimonies and, what she has been through. If it wasn’t for God, she wouldn’t be here with us; and not only those ones but the ones that I am privileged to witness as I walk beside her daily to see and imitate the ways and the manner of our daily walk in ‘The Kingdom Of Life’. I thank you Lord that Jesus truly resides in this vessel. I thank you Lord that you have given her your heart, a heart for souls. I thank you Lord that she stood with me and by me even when my flesh was rebelling, she never give up, because You never gave up on her or anyone that dares to believe Your Words. What man would lay down their life and suffer for another, only Jesus Christ.

I accepted Christ eight years ago, but I only surrendered to His Lordship towards the end of last year. The God I serve is a God of deliverance, healing and restoration. As a teenager growing up I always wanted to be in a stable relationship with Christ that would eventually lead to my marriage to God, Christ. This was something I looked forward to, but due to my lack of divine wisdom, I was always looking for love in all the wrong places. I got myself involved with a non -believer which led to a sexual relationship. I made this person my god by putting so much time and effort into this relationship. I stopped meeting with friends because I wanted to spend most of my time with him. The Holy Spirit convicted me so strongly through The Prophetess that I couldn’t handle it and rebelled totally against God. I felt unworthy because I wasn’t faithful to God and couldn’t keep my body pure. Instead of repenting and asking God to change me, I continued to live in this sin because I liked it too much. I had so many sensual thoughts that I couldn’t control. I knew it was wrong but my human fleshly spirit, my conjoined twin, the rebellious creature side of me – the grip of lust what the Scriptures calls, ‘strange fire’ – the carnal nature was much too strong on me at the time to break loose from. I couldn’t pray let alone do anything else, therefore I couldn’t fight but, I thank God that he didn’t give up on me! I thank God for my sisters and brothers in the Lord, who were constantly lifting me up in prayers at The Ministry of Jesus Christ. If it wasn’t for them petitioning our Most High God, to command Satan to release my soul, my life; I don’t know where I would have been by now! God’s love is truly amazing! Why He would still love me even when I out-rightly disobeyed and rejected Him and opted for the sensual pleasures of my sinful beastly nature is beyond my understanding!

When I heard the message, ‘Know Thyself,’ that The Lord served through The Prophetess, it awaken the spirit of God in me once again. I was amazed at this awe inspiring revelation – which taught that each person has a conjoined twin or to make it clearer each person has two spirits within them – a double, a complete reflection of our true and real self - hidden behind the flesh, deceptively and secretly operating within our souls, animating, controlling and directing their plans for our lives. They are, the human spirit and the Spirit of God. This revelation prompted me to analyse myself! After much careful examination, I began to realised that I wasn’t in control of my life but, that it was this human spirit that was dictating my every move, speech and behaviour. I didn’t have the strength within me, my own will power to break away from myself, this inner latent person within me, this hostile associate who had stolen my ability [captured my moral thinking mind] – my will power away from me was causing all the problems and struggles within my mind and personality during this period when I was rebellious and depending on my own strength, totally and completely unaware that I’d become a slave to sin (Jezebel) – simply by agreeing to her lustful and sensual thoughts, suggestions and ideas that she was searing like a hot iron into my thought life daily, overwhelming me into doing her will rather than the Will of God (Romans 7:15)! Everything I did during that period was difficult, because I had become a prisoner to the very thing that the Lord had commanded and admonished us to be on the watch out for! I was completely stressed out during this period of gross darkness as I was attending university four nights a week part-time while working full time. My job was so busy that I didn’t have time to even breathe. I even saw that the people around me (friends, family) were experiencing hard times trying to cope with me. All sorts of things were happening and they weren’t good. I had no peace and even when I slept it was like I didn’t sleep. I’d developed dark circles around my eyes, and my mind was constantly ticking and spiralling out of control! Too many things were going on, and going wrong! I thank God that his timing is so perfect because towards the end of last year, He stirred up a new desire within me to start seeking Him once again.

The field would cost all she had, so she sold everything to raise enough money.
The woman was full of joy for the treasure would be hers.

The scripture that the Lord spoke to me from just before I went home, to Trinidad to spend the Christmas holidays with my parents, was from Jeremiah 3: 12-15 ‘…Return backsliding Israel, says the Lord; I will not cause my anger to fall on you. For I am merciful, says the Lord; I will not remain angry for ever. Only acknowledge your iniquity, and confess that you have transgressed against the Lord your God…and I will give you shepherds according to my heart, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding’. I knew without a doubt that this was the Lord speaking to me loud and clear! The Lord knew I had come to the end of myself, doing what I wanted and when. This was his word confirming to me that He still loved me and wanted to use my life, if I was willing to surrender my life fully into His loving and providential care.

During my time at home that Christmas, the Lord was using mighty vessels such as TD Jakes, Paula White and Joyce Meyers to minister to me also. Then the Pastor from my local church gave a timely message on New Year’s Eve -‘Go forward in Christ’. These messages were enough confirmation for me, regarding His previous words of rebukes and encouragement building up my confidence in His unfailing love for His unfaithful people this was when my confusion came to an end, as to whether I was worthy of His love. He told me that I should forget about what happened in the past, the people I knew, and just step out in faith. I thank God for The Ministry of Jesus Christ that has been such a tremendous blessing to my life. God has taught me, through His Prophetess at The Ministry of Jesus Christ, that my worst enemy is myself. Have you heard what I’ve just said, child of God reading this testimony, your worst enemy is ‘yourself’!

As I began to walk closer with God, He began to reveal stuff about myself to me. He began to reveal my true ugly hidden self; and I was like no way God, it can’t be me! He was showing me that I was selfish but, in my own eyes, I never saw myself as being that way! I always thought, that I had a ‘good’ heart. Yeah right!... More like a heart full of deception and tricks. What the Lord used as an example was the relationship I was in at the time. I had made this man my ‘god'. I wanted all of his attention and affection. When he didn’t, I would nag him, complain and criticise all the time. The Lord showed me that I was unreasonably selfish and consumed only with thoughts about myself. I was putting 110% into the relationship and expected the same in return. Selfishness to the core! When you put people and material things first before God, this is what happens! You become selfish and oppressively demanding with no considerations for others as long as your own evil desires and cravings are satisfied. All of this was pointing to the leading and controlling activities of the spirit of manipulation and witchcraft, Jezebel that was operating within me.

The Lord also showed me that this spirit and I were in agreement. Me a controlling spirit, Never’!! People can never see the chunk in their own eyes but can, and within a second see the stub in someone else’s wrong attitude and behaviour but never in themselves. This spiritual aggression I was repeatedly directing at my brother who had recently moved to London. We had a huge argument last year because I felt he wasn’t listening to my advice concerning the job market etc. I wanted him to do what I was saying because I thought I knew better and not only that, I would complain about him to certain friends and even to our mother as well. Then God began to show me that I was holding him back in my spirit. The reason why he couldn’t get a job or was having difficulty in keeping a job was because of me. Whilst we were studying, with the Prophetess on the Message of ‘Confessions,’ the Holy Spirit told me I needed to confess my sins to my brother. I arranged to meet up with him, for coffee and I told him how sorry I was for trying to control his life by my telling him what to do, before I could even finish the tears started falling. After that I felt such a release in my spirit, because by my confessing my wrong behaviour towards him, he also was released from the control of that evil within me! We had met on a Friday and the following Monday, he told me that he got a permanent job. I couldn’t stop thanking God for showing me who the real problem was – the problem was me!

The Lord also began to point out to me, through the teachings at the ministry, all of the people that I needed to confess my sins to because of all the wrongs that I’d caused them; and, that I needed to go to them and with deep remorse, tell them how truly sorry I was for all the things I had said and done! And most of all, to plead with them to forgive me! The most difficult thing to do is to admit you are wrong and seek forgiveness because we all think we are perfect but when God arrests you – that is, when He brings you into His Throne Room for Judgment and advises you to go and confess all of your misdeeds to people; we must willingly obey Him with a grateful heart and with much reverential fear and trembling, don’t be arrogant and rebel with scorn, this could bring a charge upon you that you’ll live to regret for the rest of your life! He, THE JUDGE OF THE UNIVERSE, takes no pleasure in fools, arrogant self-worshippers, and idolaters! Make certain that He doesn’t have to tell you twice! One of the biggest revelations that I have received from this is that the words we speak are like poisonous arrows wounding other people. Our words are full of death. They are hidden traps that misleads and manipulates those to whom we are deceiving. Human words are treacherous and void of the life of God; therefore when you speak death into someone’s life, you’ll eventually have to answer to God.

The seed of God is planted within each one of us….[Isa. 6:13]. We have no right to judge anyone, believer or non believer! We have no right! We are no better than anyone because we, all of us, have fallen short of the glory of God. In other words, we have all sinned. No one is perfect. This teaching, together with the one on ‘Confessions’ of our sins, really hit home for me. I don’t want to hurt people anymore much less them to be judged by the living God. I thank God that he is humbling [and renewing His right Spirit within my soul], which is giving me the strength I need daily to resist the temptations that so easily entangles an unregenerate person.…..(Ps 51:10)]. Unregenerate persons are those whose lives are being control by their human spirit. They always have an overweening prideful and false assumption of who they believe themselves to be; but, the Bible teaches that, the Lord God resists the prideful and accepts the humble.

The Lord is doing all of this because He wants to rebuild my life to represent the nature of Jesus Christ (the Gospel of Jesus Christ); that I may come back, In Christ, as His Holy Bride for the salvation of the souls of His precious people. This new life, new nature is devoted only to God showing respect and adoration to Him alone and upholding His holy name at all times, because He is God. His thoughts are pure, and His words are just, dependable and true. He always speaks the truth. Everyday is a new day with Jesus. I am so grateful to God for what he’s doing through His ministry – The Ministry of Jesus Christ, for the training and discipline to be like Jesus. As Prophetess is always telling us; ‘God’s come in her to cultivate, discipline, train, educate, style, and equip us for the edifying of His people. This ministry is teaching us how to lay hold of the nature and the mind of God – equipping, renewing us to think, speak and be like Jesus. The teachings and messages are life changing. Each day the Lord is highlighting my nature that is not of him and everyday is a major fight to bring my mind, and my old nature under His control. There isn’t a day that goes by that a crazy thought will not flash by or, I see someone who looks ‘odd’ and I’m ready to open my mouth and say something stupid. Quite a few times either whilst walking or travelling to work, I see people and the minute I get ready to say something I hear the Lord saying; ‘This is my child too’ and I quickly say ‘Lord forgive me for judging your people. Recently I have been fighting sexual desires and thoughts but He has shown me in the book of 1Samuel 17:27 that we must have the attitude that David had. David was a man of war. He was constantly engaged in battles against Israel, taking back the nation’s land that the enemy had stolen. When he faced the giant in the valley at Gilboa, he didn’t allow his mind to throw him into fear against the bullying tactics of this heathen giant, he charged forward, took his sling out and killed Goliath with one stone! This insight, showed me that the minute we hear lustful or crazy thoughts seeking to gain entrance into our minds, we must kill them immediately with the word, [Sword of the Spirit of God].

The seed is GOD's WORD - His sperm - His message. Some people reject
it, some receive it at once, but it never takes root. Others believe
it for a while, but life's worries crowd in and they fall away, but
others allow it to grow in their lives and flourish.

The Lord has been preparing and teaching me what it is to suffer for someone through this great ministry of which, He is the Supreme Ruler. My family in the world who are religious have been visiting me here in London for the past few weeks and because of my stand with the Lord, my God, the pressure has been on but daily He has been encouraging me to stand firm because He is with me. When they realised that I didn’t want to go to the pubs with them anymore, I didn’t have friends calling me unnecessarily, and that all I wanted was to be feeding on my Bible, waking up early in the morning to study and drinking again during the course of the day whenever I had the chance, they basically hit the roof! The demons using them accused me of being stupid, brainwashed, boring etc. The demons using my mom kept saying that nothing good will work out for me, that I will never get married, and never be happy etc. They were threatening to call the police on Prophetess; but, the Lord of the battle was in command! The demons using my dad said that I had nothing going for me no education, nothing and he wanted to know what makes me think that I know anything about God. This whole saga, brought to light the passage in the Scriptures when the children of Israel were marching across the land taking back the territories that the surrounding nations had stolen from them. How they were victorious where ever they engaged in battle because the Lord had given their enemies into their hands. And also, how Balak, seeing that they had camped opposite his borders, sent for Balaam to course them for him; but, how the Lord intervened on their behalf visiting Balaam in his dreams and warning him not to touch His people – also, how the donkey that Balaam was riding on threw him off. But the most exciting part of this message was that Balaam repeatedly blessed God’s people and prayed that he too would come under the protection of the mighty God of the children of Israel. Balaam was a diviner and Balak the source of his power. [Num. 22]. My parents, who'd never met the Prophetess, were also calling the Prophetess, an occultist, but, when I said this to her, she replied, they told Jesus that He was possessed with demons – who am I? She also said that she was blessed and highly favoured to be numbered amongst the sufferers for the sake of the 'Cross of Jesus Christ'. [Lk. 11:14-36]. At times I felt like crying but I didn’t, all I could say silently was, ‘I thank You Jesus for my crucifixion through – the cross of Jesus Christ that is consecrating me holy unto You’. Other times, I wanted to answer back but the Lord reminded me that Jesus didn’t defend himself when he was being persecuted. The Lord was teaching me, that because they didn’t know God, they lacked divine wisdom, and that, they were basically captured and being used by Satan’s demonic forces.

Years ago when I first accepted Christ – back in Trinidad, my parents put so much pressure on me, back than, to the point where I left the Lord! But I had not met the Teacher Himself yet and had no wisdom at all. Therefore, I used to defend myself violently against them getting emotional but, today, I thank God that He’s kept me, through His teachings through His Prophetess at this ministry which has opened my eyes and poured so much profound divine spiritual understanding and insights into me; His knowledge and wisdom, concerning His hidden truths. But, during this latest assault, I was armed and ready for the devil, Wisdom had begun to build her house, therefore I no longer fell into the enemy’s trap beating the very people God was using me to illustrate His selfless love to during my stand for His Truths on this rugged cross – (Eph 2:17,10-12). I now non-violently [physically] resist all attempts of the devil’s poisonous arrows that are directed at my emotions and keep my mouth shut in moments like these. The fire that was coming from their mouths weren’t easy but the biggest revelation the Lord has shown me is that in the midst of the battle cry out to the Lord to have mercy on them. In spite of what seems like the impossible, ALL things are possible with Christ and they too will receive Jesus.

I wouldn’t trade the peace and joy that I’ve found living in Christ for anything! Yes, many temptations will come and diverse sufferings also but it is for the honour and the glory of our Most High One, Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour; THE KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF ALL LORDS! I’ll gladly lay down my life as often as He leads me to! It is, A great honour to be chosen by Him from amongst all of the people in the world to follow Him – to the cross for His Redemption Cause. No other calling on earth or any where can top this and I am eternally grateful to his GRACES, His Holy Spirit, My AWESOME Father, My Husband, My Saviour – My EVERYTHING!

TO GOD BE, THE GLORY AMEN!
Gina Soobratee…His humble servant……